melancholic butterfly

2002-11-13T08:55:00.000-08:00

aarghs.

2002-11-13T08:41:00.000-08:00

2002-11-13T06:07:00.000-08:00

my new layout. blogger is fucked

2002-11-11T06:29:00.000-08:00

steph's bday..tomms..damnn..i told her i'd owe her the pressie and i'd get to the states and get it for her, gonna go upstairs to discuss state plans with my parents, hahas..can't wait..know what? i'm really gonna be able to go to the states. :) marns and jlyn:i'll miss ya both so almighty much! :)

2002-11-10T16:38:00.000-08:00

okay..supposed to be having lessons in school now? but i guess its not working out..:| my parents are not ready, and i have a tummy ache..sheesh, got ld at 9, and ermms, yah..i'm late too! ah wells. going out with va and dith later. sheesh..i feel so damn horrid. will blog more later, its steph's birthday tomms..i'm one dead duck mans. haven't gotten her anything.

2002-11-10T04:23:00.000-08:00

haven't done these quizzes is like so damn long..:| hahas, gonna do more later i guess. :) hehs.

had an interesting weekend, had some pple from xiamen over, they're my mom's business associates so anyways, i tagged along with her for dinner last night, had indian food, it was pretty good and i got to practice my bloody horrid chinese, translating for my mom and for them, ahahas, think i was pretty good last night! -pats my own shoulder- ahahahas, :P then one of them is now my new god-father, hahas, :) good for me i guess, 'cos he'll find me a job when i go up there for hols, i get to earn money and have some fun. hahas, he's like a mayor of one constituency, hehs, impressive yah? marns: you get your share of china influence in SHANGHAI, i get mine here, hahas :) miss ya loads! :) anyways, there was melting moments on saturday, and well..it went pretty well i must say..:) charyee, charoon, va, vern, phoon, yangs and i performed an impromtu and it was widely liked although it think it was a lil' slap stick..aarghs! its improm anyhow. :) hmms, my parents are sending me to the states on friday i think, so jewems, think we gotta meet up soon before i go if not i'm gonna miss ya guys so so much! :| anyways, got ld tomms, hahas, but have lessons before tht, hate it..the thought of being in sec4 next year, i'm quite glad however..:) quite excited cos i'm gonna start studying and aiming to get my ass into vj then into yale. :) lalalas~ gonna go to bed now..

2002-11-07T08:55:00.000-08:00

from the first time i saw you, i had my eyes on you

seems like everyone is starting to look like +you+, think i'm falling too deeply for you, think i shld stop.

2002-11-07T08:52:00.000-08:00

today was pretty hectic, helped va study for chinese although i know i wasn't of much help, hell..at least i helped! :P hehs, anyways, we're gonna watch sweet home alabama tomms, since the rest of the jeems caught it already, we're the only 2 who hasn't watched it. :) then well we're gonna have some fun i guess! :) am so tired mans, and well..hais..don't know whats up with me, gotta meet ms jeya at 0830 tomms morn, gonna meet charyee for bfast at 0725 b4 i start fasting..:) so yah..i'm busy! :) anyhows..i'm yearning to go out, haven't been out in like so long. :(

2002-11-05T19:16:00.000-08:00

okay..got loadsa blog about, lets start from friday, had ld camp, and yeah..sure did have a tonne of fun, just wanna thank the ld com for working so hard together and cleaning up after each others messes. :) it was so fun tht i tell you, st nicks seemed to be overpowered by ld-ians in just one night. :) thanks ld-ians for giving us ya best and ya all. :) ld rocks! :) so anyways, slept only at 3+ tht night, whao..damn tired mans, spent the whole night bitching about pple with like some new pple i've never actually opened up to, hehs, but i sure did have loadsa fun, and loadsa new gossip! :) hmms..then at night, va and i met marns and ewen to watch red dragon, it was pretty good, left for kl the morning after at 0630, and boy was i damn tired, hahas slept throughout the whole journey, hees, and well..got there and then shopped for loadsa stuff, including new shorts, a miss sixty shirt, 2 ck shirts, a fcuk tee and i can't recall what more..:) the next day, met my friends in mid-valley, and well..of course we were so excited to see each other we cldn't stop gushing. :) met mahasin! and her brother, iman! :) lyn! and lyn's brother, martin! yah..:) then we went arnd the whole of mid-valley just like talking, went to the arcade and played loadsa games, hehs, tc2, and some driving thingy..:) and even watched this fat girl dance parapara, sheesh mans, pple in sgp do dance it far better than those in kl, no offence! mayuyi shld go hold some para para lessons! :) hehs, went to play pool after tht, sheesh mans..it was like damn fun, played with lyn and well..i cldn't get a single ball in, i hated the table, but stuff got better after tht, hahas. :) won 1 outta 3. :) and caught up with the last. hehs, yah..watched ballistic after tht and iman was throwing popcorn at me(?) like..huh? hehs..but nvms, i was like throwing back at him, lucy liu is so damn chio mans! :) she's hot. :) love her freckles! :) after ballistic, we walked arnd mid-valley somemore, and well..iman got his cinnaroll! my god, ya know the cinnamon rolls over there are like 3 times bigger than the ones we get here?! hahas, like...wow! and i got my scoop of baskin robins, hehs. it was good, walked over to the cyber cafe opposite, and the guy there was being a complete bastard, i just walked out! :P lalalas, after tht we went back to the arcade and played more games, and hahas, had loadsa fun before i left and they went to get martin's viking hotdog. :) hmms, miss those pple already..:( hais..hopefully i can go up soon again. ;P hmms, yesterday was like complete torture, cos i got back at about 1+ the night b4 from malacca and then slept all the way through, went for ld yesterday, and yes, it was totally fun. :) hahahas, xuan left, and so did debbie, hais..:) hopefully ld was still be as much fun, went to eat soyabean curd with va, chary, charo and phoon and yes, did have hell of a good time. :) hahas, it was fun!! :) then after tht, got home only at 8, my mom was like, hahas, why home so late..then was speaking to glenn and james on my way home, it was like..i found out like some rather disturbing news, but ah wells..:) i'm not gonna think about it. :) anyways, gonna meet dith and jlyn later to catch possesion, i know va wants to watch it, but sorry girl, ya have to stay home and study, i'll watch it again with you when ya o's are over ks? :) loveya girl! :) hahas, will blog when i get home, btw, marns left for shanghai today, hopefully she'll get loadsa nice stuff and return home safe and sound, :)

2002-11-02T09:49:00.000-08:00

caught red dragon with marns, va and ewen. it was really freaky but i had a tonne of fun. :) saw tonnes of people today and found out loadsa stuff, anyhows..i'm really tired and sleepy..so i'm gonna bed first, :) gonna go to kl at 0730, looks like no one will see me for a few more days..:) btw, i have auto-roaming!! :)

2002-11-02T00:34:00.000-08:00

hahas, just got home from camp, feeling a lil' lethargic but i'm still going to town to have some fun, catch red dragon, hang out with my buds before i go off to kl. :| but i'm gonna have some fun mans. :P hehs, anyways, camp was really fun..lala! anyways..walking out with vern now..:) will blog more tonight.

2002-10-31T07:22:00.000-08:00

happy halloween !!

had this terrific day! :) so much damn fun !! mark left today, his last lesson, but i think he's coming back more next year..:) hmms, xuan is leaving too. lalala. i'm so tired..having been sleeping for the past few nights, and don't think i'd be sleeping for the next few nights, have ld camp and mini-drama fest and i'm not done at all, anyhows, i went to town with va and jlyn and we had a tonne of fun, :) va and i saw these twins who were absolutely cute, we were just shocked, we stoned and then looked at each other and mouthed, "oh my god..cute!" hehs. :) anyhows, i'm gonna be away for a few nights..ah wells. :) ld camp is gonna be a success and 3 diligence is gonna win tomms mans! :)

2002-10-30T05:32:00.000-08:00

ld has been physically draining, but entirely fun. :) gonna go sleep soon, hahas, too tired to stay awake, tomms is halloween, gee. i don't even know if i can go out mans...:| hais, anyhows..i will try..hmms, have 2 fantastic drama instructors, a physical theatre instructor called xuan who is absolutely cool, and a voice teacher called mark, as in mark whaite from moulmein high, and he's again..damn funky! :) they are the best instructors ever mans! :) hehs, have learnt alot..:) and gotten black feet. :) va and i have been sticking with each other for like eternity, and well..:) we are having so much fun its unbelievable,

i love you, va !

she's been an angel, totally. :) and well, the jewems have been absolutely supportive, thanks guys. :) love ya'll too, friends forever and ever and ever. and the ld committee has been really working closely together for the camp tht's coming up and of course we are bonding well as well as having fun..yummy! :) ld com 2003 rocks from earth to orbital! :) and ld has been very supportive of us too! :) thanks ld! :) mini-drama fest is on friday, think i'll have to stay back 'til real late tomms, practicing..:) its really scary mans..hais, i'm stressed. :| hope we will win..:) hahas, i'm looking forward to tht cos we definately have a very powerful dramatic piece. :) ping please come back tomms and join us, missing ya so much..:( come back come back! :) yibin hahas, okay, i can tell you really love my blogskin, :) i love it too! :) hmms, i'm coming up to kl on sunday, hope you are attending selvi's depavali party, :) i'll be there. :)

2002-10-25T08:20:00.000-07:00

hmms, been having ld for the past 2 days, discussing our camp, its next friday and saturday, :) hahas, its gonna be so much fun, so all you ld-ians out there who are thinking about making ya parents come up with some lame excuse so ya can not turn up for camp, think twice. just turn up for camp and let go! ya gonna have so much fun 'cos this years committee will definately rock the house down! :) anyways, had dinner with the jeems at gapz in pac plaza just now, its quite a nice place with good food, definately recommended! :) hahas, had loadsa fun, just like a small lil' happy family. :) hmms, then anyways, marns wasn't in too good a mood, so yah, dearie cheer up okay? -smile- and like let go, relax!! sista lovin`..ehs..then spent the whole day with va of course she was being her usual sweet self! love you so much, :) hehs, :) can't wait for like next week 'cos we gonna spend so much time together, then again..i'm afraid i'll be chao lame again!! :| and took the bus home with dith hehs, she saw this bug on a person's shoulder, so she thought the person was a guy, which did look pretty much like a guy, but we realised it was a lady, so then we told her there was a bug and she calmly took it off her shoulder and then the bug flew arnd the bus..eew..how freaky is tht. :| hehs, then we were as usual having our lil' dream talks, hehs, love ya dith! i'm not gonna move tht early, so ya'll still have me tagging along. :) and of course, last but not least, jlyn was also included in our party, hehs, she practically didn't each much of her meal 'cos there was prawns and pork, poor lil' girl, but its okay..its the fun tht counts yah? love ya!!! hehs, then came home and glenn and vino were at my place, and they were trying to play the four aces fortune game which didn't exactly work, ah wells, :) we had fun...:) i broke my toe, so gonna see the doctor tomms..hahas, then glenn is now in gdns...meeting..hais..-shakes head- nvms..:( buddy boy ya arr....:(

2002-10-23T03:31:00.000-07:00

had like the worst day in school today, got all my results back, i'm on the verge of getting retained..but...hais, i'm getting lucky. i swear i've gotta start studying like a mad ass. :( hmms, i'm so tired, these few days just have been getting real tired and drained, ah wells, :) i'm gonna get thru this, gonna spend as many days as i can sleeping. was out with va today after school, stopped outside school, got a chinese dick and a piece of fish, then she got tapioca cake and kueh tutu, hahas, then we got into the cab and the driver was talking about how good tapioca cake was and then we exchanged one with him for 50c, hahas, he's really funny, so we got to town, stoned about, hais, got bored and really sleepy then we walked to taka and well, spent our time in kino just drinking freezes and then was about to go off when we started talking about kids, i'm gonna name my kids alea, alexis/alexia, z/sky/josh. hahas, :) and she's gonna call her kids faelyn and raelyn. :) and we are gonna send our kids to mgs or acs(i)<--its becoming co-ed, and also if there are cute guys/bungs. hahahas, :) and she's gonna send her kid for ballet classes while i'm gonna send my kid for latin dance and belly dance, my babe's gonna have a good bod and great grooves! :) ah wells, :) i'm so tired, then anyways, i have to tell everyone this..
we saw wong lilin

she's so totally chio and her bod's damn good, she was in this baby pink knee length dress and had her hair piled up and she was just so damn major chio...:) hahas, we were both ooohing and aaahing! but we didn't get her autograph. damn, she did add some starchyne into my life though! :) gonna sleep now. i'm so tired. :(

2002-10-22T07:02:00.000-07:00

darn bored, bored bored. :( had a horrid day at school, got back really disappointing results, to start, i flunked 2 outta 4 subjects. sheesh mans, and then..well, had something about min-drama shit. :( hais..sian sian. :( i'm not gonna act, given up. hais, then anyways, went to suntec with va today, spent loadsa time sitting arnd and wasting time, and discovering new places and well, i've definately put on loadsa weight, i feel fat! :( hais, fuck it all. i'm going on a diet! thanks va~ :)

2002-10-21T05:27:00.000-07:00

+ and when the world keeps spinning round
my world's upside down and i wouldn't change a thing
i've got nothing else to lose
i lost it all when i found you and i wouldn't change a thing
no, you and i wouldn't change a thing +

2002-10-20T08:00:00.001-07:00

va thanks for the absolutely terrific weekend, :) hahas, had loadsa fun. :) lalalas, yaya tomms! :) ilu*

2002-10-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

hahahas, practically didn't blog this whole weekend, ah wells! :) i had a fantastic weekend. went to rob's chalet on friday, left early, and yeah i know she's miffed. just wanna say i'm sorry and all that. then caught servin' sara with marns, va and dith. it was kinda cool, i mean..it was a horrid show but the company was fantabulous! :) then on saturday, met sab for chicken rice, then went for french, yeah mans! i'm gonna be able to change french class, that means not having to put up with those turn off kids in my class. can't wait..but the only problem is tht the class is 3hrs long. sheesh mans..:( anyways, met up with marns and va after that, played time crisis, i suck mans, gotta go and shoot out somemore, after that marns left and va and i sat arnd at burger king talking alot then we went to the esplanade. the esplanade has a nice library, the structure is abit stupid looking, but other than that, its a complete waste of money and a complete waste of space. i mean seriously, the esplanade is singapore's theatre, and arts hub, but no..all they show off is foreign arts, i mean like seriously..what the fuck mans, these pple gotta do some serious thinking, if the esplanade it to show off our impaccable designing skills (which seriously suck), then just build a model, but i belief that the esplanade was built so as to allow our arts scene to expand! but no, these guys show off foreign arts, if its the case then seriously, they can just stop having the SYF competitions and stop all arts programmes in schools cos after all the govt is bringing in foreign performers. not that i have a problem with them bring in foreign performers..really..just that all the performances are foreign, not even an equal number or local performers. sheesh mans, they should go and die. the arts scene is really important and i think that as singaporeans, if you even care, you should stand up for your rights, this way you can then call yourself an artist. if your not planning to do anything, you must as well just quit whatever art you take part in and go and dig your grave and bury yourself inside. :( anyways, after that i slummed at va's place, watched 6feetunder, its not a very good show but its funky enough, then this morn we woke up at 8 and well..watched 7th heaven, it was boy fun mans!! :) hahas, we spent 10hrs on our script for ld, its so good i'm sure it'll be accepted, hahas, -ego- ah wells, its really nice what!! :) its called Anfractuosity i like that word, but va hasn't said if she likes it. :) hahas, ah wells. :) i just printed it out! :) hmms, anyways, got home today at bout 4, then went home changed then went for my mom's graduation, hahas, i wore my new pretty pink top and hahas, i'm just being ego, ah wells. :P and then i went and had loadsa fun, we ate korean bbq for dinner, its really good, the restaurant is good and all but service is horrid. sheesh. :) had a fantastic weekend mans, and well..i'm gonna sleep pretty soon. :) tomms gonna watch yaya sisterhood, oohs! can't wait. and well..its game carnival..i'm gonna be so horribly sticky. :(

2002-10-17T09:01:00.000-07:00

jlyn cheer up mans, and everyone hopes ya okay now..:) -smiles- cheer up and i'll see ya soon. i'll call you tomms. :)

2002-10-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

hahahas, :) today was great, watched mr deeds with va, dith, jlyn and huis, perfect! :) hahas, we had fun fun fun!! :) i'm so glad 'cos like i've been out the whole day, yeah..shopped a while, didn't get much, hahas, then met marns, and we squeezed at the back of va's mom's car and went to arcadia, ermms...va's cousin's place. it was his birthday and we had a feast..yum! then we played mahjong! hahas, fun fun!! then yah..tht was it..so now, va and huis are over at my place, va's bathing and well..i'm typing. hahas, :) i'm just so bored..:) cos she's in the shower and we've got no one to bitch abt, no worries, we'll find someone to, hahahahas..

2002-10-16T05:39:00.000-07:00

the exams are done with !! hooray! welcome back to civilization. :) hahahs..gonna be in town almost every other day, hahas, and then next friday, intensive auditions start, i have to have to get in to syf! eva mae wu yimei you have to too!! you are gonna gonna get in. :) had a great time today, spent the day with jlyn, va, dith and marns. they are fantastic company, just tht today a lil' bad mood rubbed into everyone of us. hahas, ah wells, we're getting better. and know what? dith and i saw UTT !! hahas, i bet all you bitches out there are freakin jealous. ah wells..hahas, it was paradise. :)

2002-10-15T06:24:00.000-07:00

to the jeems :: just got this suddenly!! :) the black cloud tht was overcast our sunny island has been blown away! :) -winks- ya know what i mean. hehs. :P i love you all loads!!

2002-10-14T23:43:00.000-07:00

2002-10-14T23:35:00.000-07:00

yibin: i'm glad ya seem to getting on pretty well, hahas. i'm going up to kl in nov, we have to meet up yah?!? i missed ya the last time rnd, but this time..hahas, your not escaping. :) miss ya girl.

2002-10-14T23:33:00.000-07:00

hahas, have no paper today so i'm sianning arnd at home..hahas, actually..i'm just being really bored and well..studying for my chinese paper thts tomms, bummer! i just can't stand mugging know what i mean, esp since its chinese, which they had chinese in english. hahas, then i can do it properly. hahas, :P..just spoke to somebody in the morning, ~~she likes the same girl glenn does~~, hahas, i just found out last night, 'cos there's some kid called ~~deedee in stc~~ and yah..hahas, she's the only one arnd, i mean i thought there were like 2, hahas, ah wells..luckily she doesn't like her tht much mans. :| hehs, okay..-zips mouth-..got a new guestbook, starchyne.signmyguestbook.com, sign there okay? but if ya've got something private to say sign it in my other one. :) can't wait for like the exams to end, they end tomms!! hahas, i can't wait..can't wait!! jeems to town!!-

2002-10-14T07:10:00.000-07:00

i think adam chen is super cute!!! :) hahas, he's so cute he's so cute!! :)

2002-10-14T06:33:00.000-07:00

>>miss you, love you<<

let love be your energy

2002-10-14T06:32:00.000-07:00

-yawn- i'm so tired, but i really had to write abt my extremely exciting day...:) spent like the whole day with the jeems, and they were totally rad. i had so much so much fun. we left the school at 130, and yes, its was pouring cats and dogs, we got wet all over, but luckily we did have tiny umbrellas tht kinda did safe us from tht rain. so anyways, we went to fareast after tht, totally cool cos we ate chicken rice and we are now regulars..hahas, so corny..then we walked all over, to pac plaza, to wisma then to levis at taka and tried on levis extremely low, both va and dith looked super good, i looked horrid 'cos i have big thighs!! i'm gonna tone them..i don't care..hahas, :) then we walked to cine, then to heeren, saw va's ~~starchyne~~, saw quite alot of pple including my coke machine, junia and rick. hahas, :) had a tonne of fun mans, not to mention tht went home with dith today and we talked abt all our dreams and aspirations, i'm planning to go to yale on a full scholorship come back to sgp on a bond, serve my bond then totally move to boston and be a criminal lawyer. yummy!! hahahas, i'm definately gonna start studying..esp since i am bent on going to vjc 'cos ~~he's~~ planning to go there too!!! hehs, i am going..going..going!!! okay..so anyways, we have like a schedule deviced for this whole week, we are watching transporter on wednesday, go some shopping, going to sentosa on thursday for tanning!! and then going to town, going to town on friday too, and then going to pasir ris for coke machine's bbq. its her birthday!! hahas, ah wells...i'm gonna have fun!! i'm gonna get tanner! :)

2002-10-13T04:25:00.000-07:00

2002-10-13T03:45:00.000-07:00

hmms, i am bored. way way bored. playing pool with my wonderful sister, steph. :) ah wells, my parents are out, at some function but they'll be back for dinner. -sigh- tomms got ss and emath papers, hopefully i'll pass both and well, i'm well prepared. hahas. i hope. :| haishaishais. marns and va are both damn cute, now i miss all of 'em. the jeems. haiyahs. i just lost pool. :( lucky no betting involved mans. hehs if not i'll be broke. :P lalalas, i love my new layout. think i ought to go look for pictures on jennifer love hewitt. hot babe of the century. okay..so she's a lil' thin. but its okay. :)

2002-10-12T04:05:00.000-07:00

aarghs..i can't stand her!! i mean we so obviously do not get along it. no matter how much we try, it will be impossible, i should really stop trying, stop trying. -shakes head- its getting to tiring..too tiring. gee, i'm starting to rhyme. hahas, if she's got rules in her room, i shld be allowed to have rules in my room shouldn't i? sheesh. hate it hate it!!

2002-10-12T04:03:00.000-07:00

+some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this+
>>are you listening? whao....<<
:: just like me, they want to be close to you ::

2002-10-12T04:00:00.000-07:00

the nike presto cee--medium

the nike presto cee--small

i think i'm gonna buy either one of these, or maybe the pink. -shrugs- its a tough choice. but no one is allowed to get it mans!! hahas, 'cos its the sista's watch. :P

2002-10-12T03:54:00.000-07:00

sheesh, i'm so tired..:( social studies..hais. -sigh- i can't wait for monday, far east chicken rice mans!! hais. actually..i just ate it today, :) but its different when you eat it with them, they make it become a whole new dish. :)

2002-10-12T03:47:00.000-07:00

cut my hair today, its short. hahas, so tht it'll grow out really nicely..hahas, the hairdresser said tht it'll take abt a year? but think i'm just gonna wait till its at my shoulders. :P hehs, anyways, i'm reallie bored now mans..just woke up from my beauty sleep, hahas, slept at 5 this morn cos i was watching teevee all the time when i was supposed to sleep, ah wells. :P i'm gonna start studying..grr. i hate studying..but i need to pass.

2002-10-12T03:36:00.000-07:00

2002-10-11T06:47:00.000-07:00

love my new template, my margins are not properly aligned, i'll do tht another day larr. :P hehs, but its nice nice nice right?
+ it was then tht i realised tht forever was in your eyes + :) think we really need to get to our mission you know marns, i'm feeling upset. hahas, like i feel so...~~unloved~~ okay, so i am exaggerating, hahas..i'm just joking mans. :) everyone should use garnier pore refining essence, its damn nice. anyways, tuition is cancelled for now, and well, jlyn is not home, sheesh, i imagine the amnt of scoldings she's gonna get. :| my prayers are with you jlyn. ::131::232::269::328:: love is in the air! okay okay..i am joking.

2002-10-10T23:12:00.000-07:00

home home home!! hahas, i'm like so happy cos i've only got 3 more papers left and i successfully got pass one whole week of exams, hahahas, gonna cut my hair tomms!! :) can't wait..can't wait. gonna go for tuition later..e math tuition tht is, everyone i know is practically in town except me, dith and marns, we who suffer under the abusive word, tuition. eating glorious raisins now, haha they taste so good. :| had the most interesting bus ride today, really feel tht the 317 bus driver tht drove the bus today deserves the best bus driver award. hahas. he's really damn good mans, cos we were at the busstop at the top of the hill and well, this old couple came up, frankly, they reminded me of jack sprat and his wife, 'cos the wife was plumpish and the guy was stick thin. so anyways, got quite pissed off 'cos they took a damn long time to board the bus, they're like super fragile or something, walked really slowly. so anyways, i was like getting quite irritated in the bus, then they finally got on..the wife was like waiting for her husband to board the bus tht just added more waiting time..hahas, then the husband was putting the bus card into the feeder machines, then after tht the bus started to go down the road, and the husband was still standing, and then he was wrestling to stay standing 'cos the bus was shaking here and there, (he's so fragile he can't afford to fall), and attempting to sit down, then know what? the bus driver stopped in the middle of the rd so tht the guy could sit down!! hahas, so sweet right? and then when we went to the next bus stop this fat lady just left her house and was walking towards the busstop, then the bus got to the bus stop first, but the nice driver waited for her to run..wahs. i was like..whao!! but then..the whole bus ride was ruined when these irritating noisy kids boarded the bus and made so much noise, i was going to ask the mother to shut her kids up. hahas, ah wells. how lame can i get. :P, got off the bus a few stops after them..i was back to salvation mans..anyways, i'm sorry for tht twisted msg i had for jlyn, hahas, just in case some people were wondering, we are really not attached. hmms, got my ic today!! hahas, when i got it i was like "oh my god, this is like my proudest moment this year" hahhas, i'm a nut..a certified nut.

2002-10-10T03:11:00.001-07:00

+ i don't know why i come here, but i know i'll never leave, this the only place i wanna be, yeah yeah yeah.+

2002-10-10T03:11:00.000-07:00

jlyn: shit, i realised tht i really made tht look really twisted mans. :|

2002-10-10T03:10:00.000-07:00

had a great day today, stayed back to study ab's promise with the jeems..its so fun..looks like we are gonna be one whole big grp again! :) yay!! :) i'm so tired though, but i sure had fun. tomms lit, and i think i should start studying..but i can't be bothered. hahahas, no frets, i will soon. :) hmms, my mom's friend from france is coming over tonight, i'm so happy 'cos she's really nice. ah wells. :) romeo and juliet, romeo and juliet. :) hmms, gotta figure out a way to change signmyguestbook templates 'cos its really hard to, me and my inability to read confusing html. :| hahas, i will get over it mans. i'm gonna grow my hair!! i mean, keep it at the same length as it is now..but shape it..i'll trim it on monday. hehs, then monday the jeems are going to eat far east chicken rice..and well..shop!! hahas, i can't wait i can't wait!! :) ah wells, anyways, i totally love the jeems alot alot alot. they are the best. :) dith: i had fun in the bus today, thanks dearie, i love ya loads. :) we're coming home tomms together right? e math e math..i gotta pass. :) study for lit, we should score well. jlyn: i love you. hahas, okay..i belief you when you say tht you don't love her more. :) va and marns: your msgs are in ya gbks, hahas, :) i love both of you anyway. :)

2002-10-08T04:10:00.000-07:00

hmms, came back quite early today with dith. hahas, at bout 1345? hahas, i came home right after the paper, looks like thts what i'd be doing for the next few days, save money and study. hahas, :) ate ABC macoroni for like lunch and dinner..it was so yummy! hahas, ah wells..tomms is like history..and i'm cramming like crazy..planning to read the chapters over and over again. hahas, so anyways, everything has been going pretty okay..except tht killer a math paper on monday..sheesh kebabs mans. :(

2002-10-05T07:47:00.000-07:00

oh..and i have to call ~~chris~~ after the exams, like mother's orders mans..hahas..at least i've got a reason to talk to him..hahas. -evil laugh-..marns: i missss ya!! ilu* :) jh: i'll call ya soon. ilu* va: you never reply my messages! i love ya!!! dith: study hard girlfriend, i love ya! wyn: miss ya!! :) ilu*

2002-10-05T07:45:00.000-07:00

okay..so i lied when i said i wouldn't be coming on anymore..:X, ah wells..had a damn tiring day today..'cos i stayed up drinking bacardi with my sis last night till bout 12+, couldn't get to sleep till bout one, woke up at eight this morn, spoke to my grandmother for bout half an hour before i prepared to leave the house to go for french. waited for the damn bus to come, and boy did it take long mans..aarrghs! so anyways, the mrt took equally as long to come, but i got some eye candy on the train..i mean..the guy wasn't cute, but he had damn good dress sense!! hahas, today's like eye candy day or something..'cos like after french, i went with my sisters to town, we were supposed to just run to the supermarket, and then maybe catch a movie then get home, but we ended up doing none of tht, instead..we went arnd looking for tops and all sorts of stuff, dresses for sab's prom..hahas, then we walked to cine, and bought tickets to the era of vampires, don't even bother watching it, its a pure waste of money..can't belief i watched sucha stupid movie..even slap her she's french was better. then we met our cousin..and rick and pau!! they are so totally sweet..then we walked to heeren, walked arnd looking for clothes, met glenn..then took out my 'mint box' and ate my aspirin, then steph thought it was mints and wanted to take it..hahas, we all started laughing. so anyway, we rushed back to cine for the movie, met rick, pau and junia on the way..the three of us were ohmygod-ing at her hair, but she looks good larr. :) then watched the asshole movie, met my mom, went to the club and had dinner, i'm so stuffed! :( ate too much..getting fat..i need to go on a diet and study..hahas, but nvms, ate the salad bar at my club..and then there was this totally sweet guy! hahas, he's abt 17? and he's just total eye candy..see like we both reached the plate section and there was only 2 plates left, so we both reached for the top plate at the same time!! then he took his hand away and he was like go ahead..then i was like nah, you go ahead..then he took the plate and passed it to me!! hahas, what a gentleman! :) yah..then i smiled my biggest phoniest smile and then went to take my jelly! hahas, he's so gorgeous..i mean..va, he's not as cute as the twins, but he can compete. :P yah..then we went to play pool and saw these regulars, and like one of them totally looks like chansiri, he did something to his hair and he looks alot better now..i think..hahas, so anyways..i kept fouling up with the ball and like the 2 guys waiting for the table were like laughing at me..how mean!! but nvms, i did do pretty badly 'cos i kept jumping the ball, and it was kinda funny..:P and so was chansiri's look-a-like and friends, they were totally amused..ah wells, today just wasn't my day. :| anyways, tomms my sisters and i are going to the zoo to study, hopefully it'll be quiet..hahas, then we can play and picnic and well..study :) for now..i'm going to bed, and trying not to come online anymore..i shall do my a math papers to prepare for monday's exam..:) good luck everyone.

2002-10-04T06:01:00.000-07:00

exams are in 3 days? and they end in 12 days! woohoo!! not gonna come on for 12 days, hahas, i have to have to study..i have to pass my exams with flying colors mans, :)

2002-09-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

i love studying !!

2002-09-28T09:27:00.000-07:00

.: you are my shooting star :.

2002-09-28T09:26:00.000-07:00

was walking down orchard today, realised how many pple were attached, and looking so happy..kinda brought me back thinking of those happy times, which are obviously all gone..ah wells. there is always the holiday mission!! :) -winks at marns- we are going on our search yup? hehs. although i don't belief in love anymore, i kinda belief tht you are out there, somewhere out there. hahas, :) gee..i contradict myself too much. i need to go shopping!! -sigh- my cupboard's becoming empty. i want a new skirt and the levi's low cut faded.

2002-09-28T09:21:00.000-07:00

jennifer love hewitt is damn hot. :) if i was crooked, she'll be the first person i'd jio. just tht she's with john meyers! (sorry for the mix-up, i was thinking scooby-doo.) and ermms..she's too far away. :) then again..i am straight

2002-09-28T09:19:00.000-07:00

caught the tuxedo today, hahas its really damn corny, its damn good. everyone who wants a good laugh go catch it, it brightens up solemn spirits :) hmms, so i spent my whole day with my mom, but i enjoyed myself..tomms gonna be a really long day i really ought to sleep soon, have tuition at 10, then i'm going swimming. i feel fat..as usual..hahas. i'll get over it. i will. my body is tired, so is my mind, and my soul. i'm exhausted, i've got a damn bad migraine. aarghs!!

2002-09-26T20:28:00.000-07:00

loving someone means giving tht person your everything. no, i'm not ready. and no, i don't believe in love anymore.

2002-09-26T20:26:00.000-07:00

+don't you try to rain all night+

i would try running away if it'd help, but i know it won't. i would try killin' myself if it'd help, but i know it won't. i'd try slashing myself, but i just know it won't help at all. nothing in this word is perfect, nothing lasts forever, nothing is for ours to keep forever.

2002-09-26T20:15:00.000-07:00

signmyguestbook.com is down again, everyone who owns a guestbook using tht server, don't expect a reply from me anytime soon, hahas, :) but no matter what i love ya'll lots! :) hmms, everyone has been super sweet to me! i'm like so touched, been going to school down and out, but they nv fail to cheer me up. thanks loads.
(( joycelyn )) thanks so much yup? don't know what i'd ever do if it wasn't for you. gee, it rhymes! gotta catch up with you soon mans. hahas, i love you. -muah-
(( marns )) hey sista` thanks for everything, even crying ~~with~~ me. hahahas, :) can't wait for xams to be over so we can party. love ya!! -hugs-
(( va )) we are always so near yet so far..but its okay..after exams we'll be really near yup? hahas, take care me dear, i love you so so much, we'll party till we drop, in the mean time, please study. -muah-
(( dith )) i will nv find enough words to tell you how much you mean to me, thanks dearie for standing by me, you take care and study hard okay? i love you so much. -hugs-
(( papacow )) thanks so much for everything, the only word tht i've been able to say is thanks, hahas, and i think it just has a million over other words inside tht word altogether. thanks yup? for being there for me and never failing to cheer me up. moo~!
(( mommie )) thanks for cheering me up, i love you so much.
(( sab and steph )) i'll be there for you guys always, 'cos you'll be in my heart always. :) i love you both always, forever and ever. we'll get through it together. -muah-
(( god-pop )) thanks for being there always, ya've been so supportive. thanks yup? i love you.
(( poppa of my deceased kid )) hope you like the mango sweets, i'll get more next time for you okay? i just want to thank you for comforting me and all tht. i'm glad to have gotten to know you. -muah-
(( everyone else who cheered me up )) thanks so much, good luck for your exams. sstudy hard. :)

2002-09-22T03:26:00.000-07:00

last time i talked to you
you were lonely and out of place
you were looking down on me
lost out in space
laid underneath the stars
strung out and feeling brave
watch the red orange glow
watch you float away
down here in the atmosphere
garbage and city lights
you have gone to save your tired soul
you have gone to save our lives
i turned on the radio
to find you on sattellite
i am waiting for the sky to fall
i am waiting for a sign
all we are is all so far
you are falling back to me
the star that i can see
i know you are out there
somewhere out there
you are falling out of reach
defying gravity
i know you are out there
somewhere out there
hope you remember me
when you are homesick and need a change
i miss your purple hair
i miss the way you taste
i know you'll come back someday
on a bed of nails i will wait
i'm praying that you don't burn out
or fade away
all we are is all so far
you are fallin' back to me
the star that i can see
i know you are out there
somewhere out there
you are fallin' out of reach
defying gravity
i know you are out there
somewhere out there
you are fallin' back to me
well i know
i know
you are fallin' out of reach

2002-09-20T19:46:00.000-07:00

i'm a cynnical bitch!

2002-09-20T19:25:00.000-07:00

gee, typed this whole long entry then i stupidly pressed the back button! hahas, how dumb can i get? :( guess my elation period is officially over, i've gotta start studying, and like get on with my life. hais. i do not like anyone anymore..love is too much of a sad thing. you believe tht some people have relations like those in fairytales where the knight comes in shining armour and live happily ever after, sometimes you believe tht some couple is like tht but they kinda break it to you tht they don't get along anymore, then your whole image of this "there is sucha thing called a perfect fairytale relationship" doesn't exist anymore. so anyways, to hell with relationships! hmms, was just saying tht i had dinner and went for a karaoke session with my parents yesterday, it was kinda fun and i totally love vanessa william's colors of the wind. i'm fucking fulll now, just ate my breakfast, -rubs my tummy- gee, i feel like winnie the pooh! hehs, i'm tht fat. hais, my inferiority complex is coming back now, damn, i'm not gonna eat so much anymore. hahas, i'm too fat. :( gonna go for french soon, haven't been for 2 weeks i think, so i've missed a tonne of lessons, darn. i've gotta catch up mans! :( and then i've gotta start studying already, like really really mug! think everyone else has started except me! no more coming online so often. hais, but the blogger is irrisistable! hahas, :P..joycelyn: thanks for being sucha darling! :) don't know what i'd do if i didn't have ya to talk to. i love ya joycelyn!! marns and i are gonna get the sista's watch! woohooo! its damn damn damn nice!! hehs, if i can get a pic i'll paste it here. hehs, sista power mans! i love ya! dith have a great day today okay? i'm sure ya fine, hahas, i love you one whole tonne, we are studying on monday yup? eva: thanks for yesterday, our stoning in discovery cafe and like just slacking our lives away, okay..joking..it was only 1 hr, and eating tht sinful oreo cheesecake, gee. i feel fat, i told you! hahas, but i hope you have a great day today yup? and like study!! i love ya babe. -muah- gee, don't you wish tht everyone had a skater boy? its just too sweet, i'm gonna get the avril lavigne cd. i don't care!

2002-09-19T05:43:00.000-07:00

hmms, i've been freaking mood-swinging mans! i've been in this really overjoyed mood! gee. i wonder..whats up man?! hahahas.

2002-09-19T05:42:00.000-07:00

i have an a math test tomms, went to va's place to study today..did quite alot of studying, including teaching joycelyn and eva how to do the questions, as well as cooking maggi mee! and having a feast. hahas, -rolls eyeballs- joycelyn: you suck! :( hahas, but i still love you loads. :) va: thanks for having me over at ya place for 2 consec. days, i've been having fun as well as studying..and pigging out majorly alot! -growls- i need to go on a major diet!!! hais. marns: cheer up okay dearie? smile! go read ya gbk, i practically said all i have to say over there! dith we have a date on monday!! hahas, study session number 3!! and in the meantime..go study hard okay? wyn: i hope ya starting to have fun with us, as our new recess buddy! :) min >>>happy birthday to you!!!!!!!<<< i tried to sign ya guestbook, but apparently signmyguestbook.com is down. i'm sorry! so it's just gonna be posted here okay? wei, huis, pau, sab, vern, jiang, yangx and wai: sorry mans, i tried to sign ya gbks, but signmyguestbook.com is really down. i'll sign it another day when i'm free! damn..i read the disgusting "i-tried-to-pull-my-veins-out" story in cleo and i'm seriously damn disgusted!! if you have the tendencies to carry out something so disgusting such as tht, i suggest you go read this mths's cleo and also..stop!! if you really wanna die..tell ya parents and ask them to send you to the doctor so he/she can put you to sleep, it'll be easier on everyone..and also..your organs can be donated!! :) gonna ground myself at home so i can study..hahas, i really need to pass the exams desperately..in fact..i need to pass them really well.

2002-09-17T06:34:00.000-07:00

i think UTT is really cute! :)

2002-09-16T20:19:00.000-07:00

damn i'm bored! should have gone to school this morn but i felt way too congested. ahahs don't know whats wrong with me larr, anyways, i have to study for chem today, and understand everything really well so tht i will pass my chem exams and do pretty well, hahas, :) blogger was fucked up last night mans, couldn't get to my page at all, i mean..they kept on opening some weird ass pages, :) is it true that teachers come and read the students blogs? i'm sorry i'm a little slow. hahas, to the teacher who's reading: go sign my gbk ks? hahas, i wanna see how lame you are. :) oh, and you must as well visit all the links at the side and sign everyone's gbk. -sweet smile- hmms, so teacher's are tht free? they keep on complaining tht they don't have time for this and tht, maybe its because they are trying to locate more and more student's webbies. oh wells, -shrugs- the exams are coming in 2 weeks, i'm gonna try not coming online as often as before, so yup..just continue filling my gbk up yah? hahas, everybody: good luck for the exams, study hard!!! :)

2002-09-14T18:52:00.000-07:00

i know everyone loves me now 'cos i've toned down my colors, hahas, :) its really easy to read now right? hahas, :)

2002-09-14T09:59:00.000-07:00

was doing flag day today for the christian outreach for the handicapped, and collected bout 24+ dollars! hahas, i'm so prouda myself, i know its hard work mans. hais. :) but i had fun, went from dhobyghaut mrt, to peninsular, to funan, then back to cine, then to heeren then walked all the way to lido, and took the train back to dhobyghaut and returned the bags, in the mean time, marns, joycelyn, eva and edith threaded their eyebrows! damn nice now mans, hahas, of 'cos i got mine threaded a long time ago. :P hehs, so anyways..it was damn fun today, thanks to marns [sista], joycelyn, va, dith, wyn, jiaying and pau i had so much fun just spending time with them, and marns and i were practically inseperable today, 'cos we were mission partners, and i stole her jap guy's money! hahaahas, oh wells, sorry marns, i love you alot, and i know you do too, hehs, okay. so i'm being ego..but thts not the pt, i had loadsa fun crapping with ya mans, cheer up okay? and chill out, i'll see ya soon, we'll both get our tans tomms! :P joycelyn: hope ya in a better mood now, ya seemed pretty distracted today, ya take care yup? i'll see ya mon. ilu* va: thanks so much for today, i really appreciate it alot, and hope you had loadsa fun yup? we've got alot of topics to cover the next time i see you, so tk care and rest well, i love ya one whole lot. dith: i hope ya feeling better by the time you read this, just chill out and tahan abit okay? anything just call me or sms me, we can talk. :) i love you alot no matter what, and you'll always be my baby! wyn: thanks wyn for the wonderful day, go read ya gbk, cheer up, ilu. pau and jiang: you guys were so totally sweet, hope you guys had as much fun as i did, take care of yaselves yup? ilu. everyone who donated thanks so much for ya generous donations!! sab and steph love you both alot, cheer up and take care of yaselves, sisters rock! glenn thanks best male bud for today, ya rock! i hate ya lighter! erin i'm not pissed. :) take care. ewen i hope ya didn't feel awkward today. :) haha, and tht ya had fun with a crazy buncha girls in tht small twisted chicken rice stall. :) hahas, take care of yaself.

2002-09-12T06:06:00.000-07:00

+ why does the sun go on shining
why does the sea rush to shore
don't they know
its the end of the world
'cos you don't love me anymore. +

thts like the song tht we sang today, hahas, just joycelyn, manya, edith, eva and i and we've got it recorded, just ask joycelyn, va or marns to play it for you if you desperately wanna hear it.

hais. it really sucks. i really hate it!! aarghs, think i really cannot make it.

2002-09-11T03:57:00.000-07:00

>>'cos you bring out the best in me
you turn my world round
'cos you are my inspiration
'cos you are all i ever need
you are every wish tht i hoped for
i believe in me once more
baby you bring out the best in me<<

2002-09-11T03:53:00.000-07:00

so i've been meaning to study physics, but it seems almighty impossible mans, aarghs! hahas, i've been painting sab's steps with wei and then playing daidee with sab, steph and wei. ah wells, i've gotta get down to my book soon mans, but its dinner soon and well..my tummy is grumbling..i mean..almost! :P i'm hell bored mans, oh wells, tomms gonna be a long day 'cos the physics test will totally drain me!! lalas, oh wells, i really can't wait till saturday, its flag day! everyone who reads this has to come down and give me donations okay? you have to scoot the WHOLE of town to find me!! hahas, and give me a few coins lars. hahas, just be nice go down to the bank and change 2 dollars worth of 10cent coins, yup then give it to me!! hahas, anyways, i'm being lame now. hahas, 'cos my punner partner is here. woohoo! hahas.

2002-09-11T00:22:00.000-07:00

back home real early today, hahas, i had the urge to come home and eat tomyam noodles. oh wells, wei's over at my place studying, i've gotta do some studying too. have a physics test tomms, horrific!

2002-09-10T05:34:00.000-07:00

the st*rs that you see in the sky are the same ones i see.
seriously, i've been meaning to ask :
am i not pretty enough, is my heart too broken, do i cry too much, am i too outspoken, don't i make you laugh, should i try it harder, why dya see right through me?

2002-09-10T05:29:00.000-07:00

storm clouds may gather,
stars may collide,
but i will love you till the end of time.

2002-09-09T06:16:00.000-07:00

helped marns do her blog the whole day, haha tedious but real fun!! :) go see it later if ya have the time. :) hmms, i'm way bored mans..supposed to have gone swimming today, but unfortunately, i was too tired. would have gotten a real nice tan though. oh wells, :) joycelyn promised to call me today, but guess she's real busy. ah wells. :) i'm going to bed soon. haha too tired, my eyes are pain, i won't be surprised if i get eye cancer, okay okay..call me dumb..i know there's no such thing yet, but still..it may happen! :) hahas, i love the way vanessa carlton plays the piano, damn good! hahas, and shakira can dance so well!! i wanna go learn belly dancing too, and the tango..woohoo..if only i could do it the way she did. hahas, okay..now i'm being spastic..i'm seriously damn high today lars, don't know why also. aarghs!!! there could only be one reason, but tht reason seriously hasn't even materialised 1%. oh wells! it'll get better on saturday. i've gotta start studying!!! :(

2002-09-09T03:27:00.000-07:00

xmarnsx cheer up dearie, :) everything is gonna be alright yup? and yes, saturday is definately gonna be a better day for the both of us, and not forgetting joycelyn. :) hahas, smile okay? -gives ya a real warm hug- :) no matter what it is, i'll be here for you all the time and i'm never gonna leave, 131 power! :) i love you. -muah-

2002-09-08T07:22:00.000-07:00

school starts tomms, and i think its then when i'm gonna have to limit my time to come online again. hais. its really horrid cos i think i've just gotta start mugging real hard. its only 4 more weeks to the exams and i really wanna score well and get promoted. hahas, my aunt asked me to study, and since i love her a whole lot, i'm heeding her advice, but then again, i'm not studying for anyone except myself. have to go swim tomms..:| 'cos i didn't swim today..it rained the whole day. aarghs, then we stayed home the whole day..and when i was just about to make myself comfortable, my dad brought us all out for dinner, and i ate so much!! 2 crayfish, 1/6 part of a solefish and a bowl of noodles. gee. i feel bloated. :( anyways, i'm gonna go to bed pretty soon..been sleeping pretty late and waking up real early. hais. and the whole week in school just drained me out. :( aarghs. more school.

2002-09-07T19:20:00.000-07:00

i love you,
and i need you.

no matter what i do,
all i think about is you,
even when i'm with my boo,
you know i'm crazy over you.

2002-09-07T19:18:00.000-07:00

>>>papacow and mommie<<< ::

happy anniversary!! like the 13th mth right? hahas, hope you guys really have fun throughout the many more mths to come, thanks for being the best 'parents' ever. :) take care of yaselves okay? hahas, i know ya'll are so sweet and all..just don't have to keep publishing it yup? hehs. loving ya both always, :) forever.

to you both ::

baby i can't wait,
till the day i hear you say,
you were mine,
theres no other one for me
keep in mind
you make my life complete
and tonight we'll make love then sleep,
'cos your mine,
your the one that i'll keep all time.

2002-09-07T07:42:00.000-07:00

had loadsa fun today with marns, eva and ewen in the afternoon, we were walking around the whole of cine and heeren..it was tiring and hot! "i am so hot" hahahas, :P then after that va and i went to meet glenn, hc, jeremy and steph and then other pple came to see us and we were just stoning around..then we saw chan, okay..it was weird. then we were stoning in yoshi.. then we met sal and wyn wyn, please take care of ya hair..i saw liaos wanna cry. :( and then joshua, shoshi and some guy was there too..and the whole day was pretty great until my dad called and started xialan-ing me..okay..so i know its not the best way to use it. :( okay..then we had dinner at this funky jap restaurant and we had fun..then va called and told me ~~starchyne~~ was at heeren..yah..and my knees turned wobbly. hais. oh wells. what can i say..anyways..i'm just real glad to be home..stoning in my own world, and talking to my best male bud glenn!! hahas.

2002-09-06T19:43:00.000-07:00

hate my cursed life. :| wish there was more to life than just that. -heaves a large sigh-

2002-09-04T19:13:00.000-07:00

> > can't live, if living is without +you+

you are falling back to me,
the star that i can see.
i know you are out there,
somewhere out there.
you are falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
i know you are out there,
somewhere out there.

2002-09-04T19:03:00.000-07:00

okay..so i'm really just being lame, but i've gotta tell everyone about the shit that happened to me during the bbq, i mean the bad stuff of course..there is always the good part. hahas, i got a hole in my palm, well..its covered up now cos the skin grew over, but its like red..hahas, i got scar from the burn i got from the candle wax on my thumb, i've got a scar in the middle of my big and 2nd toes from the flying sparks of the fire..(we fanned too much), and i've got 2 sandfly bites, how horrid is that mans? they are big, swollen and the hurt like shit..and they're really itchy. :| anyways, i shan't talk about the bbq anymore..but i sure will think about it. hahas. we should organize another bbq soon. -big wide smile- anyways, hehs, had steps yesterday, then we were practically tellin' each other's fortune the whole day..and of course..some were really coincidental. -winks at va- hahas, :) after steps va and i went to town, then we met the bruddax-->ju-ni-a, ro-bin and rick they were really funny. hahas, the straighties and the crookeds. hahas, :) anyways, i just wanna thank va for making my whole day totally fun, and also for brightening up my day, thanks va. :) you rock, ilu. and marns the absolute sweetest, we all know why. hahas, thanks dearie, we are going out on saturday right? i'm so excited, i just can't wait! my hols are seriously like not even having hols, its worst than norm school days, i have to stay in school from 0900-1700 hrs, how horrid is that? oh wells..i will just get on with it, its ending soon.

2002-09-03T03:54:00.000-07:00

had a ball of a time at the bbq yesterday, organized by edith, marns, va and joycelyn thanks so much you guys, i love you all so much, and i really had alot of fun, :) joycelyn: happy bday too! edith: thanks so much, cheer up baby, and like anything just call me larx, (i mean what kinda english is this? hahas) va: oh me oh my oh bother! you rock babe~ :) hope ya back ain't sore from all that sleeping on the cold hard floor in my room, i love you. :) marns: i understand why he is a best guy friend, he's really nice to you mans. :) hahas, i don't object no more..hahas, esp since there's ~~starchyne~~. to all the rest who came [huis, pau, abby, vern, rob, junia, collin, rick, ve, ser, ta, al, ewen and his 14 friends, sab, steph, glenn, hc, jeremy, erin] thanks so much for coming and making the bbq a blast! :)
+328+ forever and ever. :) steph, joycelyn, eva, edith, samantha and manya. :) power! :)
.::131::. two girls, one a and a shoppin' place. :) we rock mans! :) hahahas..
==stoners== you guys stone mans! but thanks for comin' yup.
< 38 | 28 | 9 > sistas forever we shall be, never apart. :)

~~starchyne~~ the angel from heaven, brought for me to love.

2002-08-31T21:07:00.000-07:00

my com is attacked by a sickening virus, anyways..i won't be online for a real long time due to the upcoming exams, (i'm studying you see) everyone better study hard yup,
.:131:. joycelyn and marns, study hard, ilu all. -muah-

2002-08-28T07:57:00.000-07:00

thanks to all those people that made my day great : papacow (for being there throughout the day), min (for cheering me up on the way), joycelyn (for being there), marns (for being you), va and dith (for cheering me up and being positive), yogs (for staying with me, or at least attempting to), diana (for helping out with all the class shirts), charl (i love you!), wei (thanks for caring), mommie (for sms-ing me in the morning, and forgeting my age), yangs (for that beautiful note), char+peisi+ronx (for those birthday wishes), buddy pingie (for that BEAUTIFUL card, that is just so sweet, -swoons-), suyee+vienna+weichee (for that wonderful present, the baby's shoes filled with sweets), sherm+ben+mich+joyce+shubei (for remembering me as the princess angel), jingyi (for just being there for me), lynn (for being the first one to wish me, and for doing nice thing on her blog, ilu) claire+charlene+karmun+xinling (my cool jnrs who remembered by birthday, i love the orange bean bag and the ladybug thingy), wailing (for cheering me up), sab+steph (love both of you so much, sab, thanks for the scottish terrier thingy), glenn (for being my best male bud), hc (for remembering), chan (for remembering), 3d (for singing me that wonderful birthday song), mahasin (for that long-d call), stepht (for forgetting it was my birthday, but redeemed herself) and everyone else who i left out, i'm sorry..but you are in my thoughts. :)
i've gotta thank the school for spoiliing my day, giving everyone back result slips today, i did really badly..aarghs. so i think i'm gonna get major grounded soon if i don't buck up, so yup. gotta stop coming online and all. :) guess this is the pits. my wonderful birthday ruined, actually there are no memories of my birthday anymore..just one sad/depressing day. ah wells! :| i've gotta go back to school for everyday of the september hols. fucked up. :( but then..the bbq on monday is still on. :)

2002-08-27T01:44:00.000-07:00

okay..so i just got back my connection to the internet..my key to the world. hahaahas. okay so thats damn cliche. sorry mans. :P it's getting really horrid 'cos like the exams are coming..in about one and a half mths. sheesh kebabs mans. :| i've gotta start studying now. hahahahahahas. have a bio test tomms..its really sucky 'cos its my birthday tommorrow everyone should know already. if you don't..it is my birthday tomms. :) 28th of august hahahahas. today's joycelyn's birthday today.. >>happy birthday joycelyn..:)<< happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to joycelyn, happy birthday to you. :) i'm sure today was the best birthday you'd ever had..besides the fact that i ALMOST made you cry..please forgive me. hahahas you know how much i love you don't you? and marns is just really poor thing cos joycelyn and my birthdays just fall consecutively. hahahas. anyways..i'm supposed to go for tuition now. hais. sian sian...:( i'll blog more later after tuition. hahahas. i've too much to say..too little time. then again..maybe i won't blog again..i've got a bio test to study for. sheesh kebabs and mushroom tails. to everyone else who's birthday falls today..happy birthday. :) esp weichee and you.

2002-08-10T20:01:00.000-07:00

there`s a man sitting down by the 405
hitting some kind of tune on his raving guitar
he seems stranded in a desert of a million dreams
just like life hasn`t been exactly as nice as it seems

hello! how are you?
why are you looking so sad on a day like this?
do you feel like talking?
now you got me started
i wanna see a smile upon your clueless face

you could be so happy on this brand new beautiful day
you could be so happy like kids getting ready to play
come on and bring it on, on and on
nothing that you do is wrong
come along and don`t drag it on
you could be so happy on this brand new beautiful day

you say your girlfriend is pretty
she`s waiting at home
got a safe job
and you can call a little house and a chevy your own
it all seems perfect but ain`t perfect just as boring as hell
you`ve been craving for this
and now you`re stuck just like a snail in it`s shell

all that matters is that you can
be free to live your life the way you sincerely feel it
'cos life`s too short
you don`t wanna be a prisoner
of your own illusions
and i shout it out

you could be so happy - you got somebody to love
you could be so happy - ain`t that good enough
ain`t no use to sit and drag it on, thinking `bout the mess
you`ve done - nothing`s wrong, just bring it on
you could be so happy, you got somebody to love

you could be so happy - on this brand new beautiful day
you could be so happy - like kids getting ready to play
come on and bring it on, on and on
nothing that you do is wrong
come along and come bring it on

you could be so happy - ain't that good enough
ain't no use to sit and drag it on, think 'bout the mess you've done
nothing's wrong, just bring it on
you could be so happy - you got somebody to love

there`s a man sitting down by the 405
got a smile on his face - thinking: `what a wonderful life`

2002-08-08T19:55:00.000-07:00

-screams my lungs out- hahas, okay so my page is all pink. woohoo! i love it, i love it.

2002-08-08T08:54:00.000-07:00

i hate pimples.

2002-08-08T08:47:00.000-07:00

hmms, so i had 3 consec. days of shopping..hahas. oh wells..what can i say mans? i did have fun though!! eva is a great shopping partner and everything, i love ya va!! we have to have more of these nice lil' get togethers. then today edith met us, hahas, i love ya dith, one day ya, me, va and marns and joycelyn must go up to the paragon rooftop and bitch alright? the INAB. :) take care both of you. and of course this few days joycelyn and i haven't been on vv good terms think cos both of us are kinda pms-ing. hahas, and marns is just damn corny, *hugs her tite* i love ya both! :) anways..the days been long..and i think smoke is affecting my complexion cos like pimples are popping like crazy!! aarghs. :(

2002-08-05T07:05:00.000-07:00

long day in school...sucks! :( tomms i'm coming str8 home too, but on wed, thurs and fri i'm going out. hahas. it gets exciting once in a while. hahas. :) steph is gone so my days are much freeer, but steph: i really do want ya to come back here. :) unless both of us decide to get into the same U and study together or something. hahas. takecare in germany okay? miss ya.
to the poppa of my deceased kid, yogs hahas, its not that you don't get a dedication, just that i was too lazy to like write an entire blog. :P. i know ya little secret -smiles- go for it ~~babe~~, i mean dude. i'm all for it!! when are we doing the bloody islamic thingy? :| see ya tomms. hehs.

2002-08-03T21:07:00.000-07:00

i think i'll get out of here
where i can run, just as fast as i can
to the middle of nowhere
to the middle of my frustrated fears
and i swear,
you're just like a pill
instead of making me better
you keep making me ill
you keep making me ill

2002-08-03T21:03:00.000-07:00

hey 've been watching you
every little thing you do
every time i see you pass
in my homeroom class, makes my heart beat fast
i've tried to page you twice
but i see you roll your eyes
wish I could make it real
but your lips are sealed, that ain't no big deal
'cos i know you really want me
i hear your friends talk about me
so why you tryin' to do without me
when you got me
where you want me
(hey juliet)
i think you're fine
you really blow my mind
maybe someday, you and me can run away
i just want you to know
i wanna be your romeo
hey juliet
girl you got me on my knees
beggin' please, baby please
got my best dj on the radiowaves saying
hey juliet, why do you do him this way
too far to turn around
so i'm gonna stand my ground
gimme just a little bit of hope
with a smile or a glance, gimme one more chance
'cos i know you really want me
i hear your friends talk about me
so why you tryin' to do without me
when you got me
where you want me
hey juliet
i think you're fine
you really blow my mind
maybe someday, you and me can run away
i just want you to know
i wanna be your romeo
hey juliet
i know you really want me
i hear your friends talk about me
so why you tryin' to do without me
when you got me
where you want me
you don't have to say forever
for us to hang together
so hear me when i say
hey juliet

kinky song huh? i'm just now so into the romeo and juliet thingy. hahas, doing elit does this to you. hahas.

2002-08-02T07:28:00.000-07:00

x 242847547996 x
may the bond that lies between us never break.

okay..so marns is like totally weird today..she's starting to blossom with lesbian tendencies. hahahas, her msn nick is like
(°ª¦×´ñêbµlåë`×¦ª° - i need a girL`)<-- she's starting to freak me out mans..marns!!!! i know ya going to like some ulu island tomms with no guys..but try survivin' without them yup? hahahas, its just a few days..!! don't need to change ya sexual preferences so fast!!
joycelyn came over to my place today then we went to eat taco bell, yummy! :) hahas, and of course..my miso soup from yoshinoya, and this was at heartland mall..okay..quite a lame name..but quite a funky place..i guess!! :) then my grandmother made me go to get durian for her...+pinches nose+ yuck..it was so smelly, i was like pinching my nose when i bought it..and then when i walked home i was like holding it one arm's length away..oh wells. hahas..durian is so stinky!! :p. hmms, steph is gonna go off tomms, she's going to germany for camp..-sigh- gonna miss her like crazy. :( damn!! steph, come back soon yup? or i'll take up ya mom's invite and go over to visit!! :) hahas, school life's going back to normal from next week, woohoo! oh and ronx got me a pink condom buddy from denmark, its real cute, thanks ronx! :) ilu. hmms, dith and va: miss ya both, hmms. va, are ya coming to send steph off tomms? msg me! dith, have fun with marns, ms sexually deprived in kota tinggi. :)

2002-07-30T07:58:00.000-07:00

chill out
what you yellin' for
lay back
it's all been done before
and if you could only let it be
you will see
i like you the way you are
when we're drivin in your car
and you're talkin to me one-on-one
but you've become
somebody else
round everyone else
watchin your back
like you can't relax
you tryin to be cool
you look like a fool to me
tell me
why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
i see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
gets me frustrated
life's like this you
you fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
and you turn into honestly
you promised me
i'm never gonna find you fake it
you come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're makin me
laugh out
when you strike a pose
take off
all your preppy clothes
you know
you're not foolin anyone
when you become
somebody else
round everyone else
watchin your back
like you can't relax
you tryin to be cool
you look like a fool to me
tell me
why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
i see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
gets me frustrated
life's like this you
you fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
and you turn into honestly
you promised me
i'm never gonna find you fake it
chill out
what you yellin for?
lay back
it's all been done before
and if you could only let it be
you will see
round everyone else
watchin your back
like you can't relax
you tryin to be cool
you look like a fool to me
tell me
why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
i see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
gets me frustrated
life's like this you
you fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
and you turn into honestly
you promised me
i'm never gonna find you fake it
why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
i see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
gets me frustrated
life's like this you
you fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
and you turn into honestly
you promised me
i'm never gonna find you fake it

2002-07-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

got quite pissed off today..just hope everyone just kills themselves right now. :( hmms..she just taking all my friends away from me, and that really sucks mans. :( and seriously..i mean ALL down with shit mans. anyways, we're having dinner with steph on thursday, at seoul garden..i can't wait mans. hahas, and its like so exciting, it'll be my 3rd time seeing steph since she came back, but then she's leaving like soon, on saturday. hais. :| sad, but quite happy..cos like i guess i've made loadsa new pals, who just rock~ love ya guys, ya know who ya'll are. :) anyways..i gotta go study for my chemistry test tomms..it sucks mans. :( all those calculations. :(

2002-07-28T03:00:00.000-07:00

steph's back, i'm too excited! :) hahas, *^>>welcome back steph~, i missed ya alot..<<^* anyhows, ld farewell is over, upcoming synergise, which is just gonna piss me off..hahas, and loadsa tests and exams..i'm on my way to being a nerd, like seriously! :)
everyone chill out and lighten up. well done cheerleaders!

2002-07-20T07:19:00.000-07:00

been a long time since i last blogged, oh wells!! :) hahas, i had a damn bad week today, and i officially detest my form teacher, she's a bloody bitch. :( hmms, joycelyn's got me hooked on dried mangoes, darn!! :| its pissin' me off cos its so sweet. (which means i'd put on alot of weight!) hais, anyways..i've found a new friend in edith, :) heys girl..thanks. :) and even better friends in marns, i love ya!! and of course joycelyn and va. :)
shimmer:: don't let what The Massive get to you!! just do your best and i'll definately be there to support you guys! :) practice hard, don't let us down. :)

+ why do you do that? as if its gonna get you any attention. +

2002-07-16T05:19:00.000-07:00

ronx, you've probably left by now, i miss ya so much already. hais, was like thinkin' during tuition the whole time why i just didn't go and see you off. :( hmms, whatever it is, we have to attack cartel once you come back. love ya so much keeper. :)

2002-07-14T07:38:00.000-07:00

armeggeddon:: hey guys, we're gonna be performing tomms, our last and final show so we've gotta show the world what we are worth okay? -smiles- keep up the great work, armeggedie spirit burn on. :) love all of you.

2002-07-13T19:24:00.000-07:00

long long day today. just gonna get non-stop shit from my ~~grandmother~~, i just choose to shut up and listen to my music. she's been nagging ever since she's got home at like 0930hrs, and its 1021hrs now. aaarghs, hard life. my parents are in m'sia and they are definately havin' more fun compared to me. hahax. i'm way bored though, supposed to have tuition at 0930, but my bloody teacher is not here, and he hasn't figured how tired i am mans, seriously..he thinks he's the only one who can come late and wake up late? gee!! i woke up at 0930, but you can't blame me mans, i was talking to someone on the phone till 0300 and the person refused to let me get my sleep, so anyway..i'm damn tired this morning, wished that i would still be sleeping. :) hais, unfortunately, the asshole of my teacher just refuses to come. aarghs.
to the cheerleaders (shimmer) -->good luck dearies, practice hard and well. :)

2002-07-09T07:07:00.000-07:00

.+'*">>:happy birthday mommie!!!!:<<"*'+.
hope ya had a great day, take care okay?
i love ya loads! :)

2002-07-09T05:03:00.000-07:00

he was a boy, she was a girl
can i make it anymore obvious?
he was a punk, she did ballet
what more can i say?
he wanted her, she'd never tell
secretly she wanted him as well.
but all of her friends stuck up there nose
they had a problem with his baggy clothes.
he was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enough for her
she had a pretty face, but her head was up in space
she needed to come back down to earth.
five years from now, she sits at home
feeding the baby
she's all alone
she turns on tv
guess who she sees
skater boy rockin' up MTV.
she calls up her friends, they already know
and they've all got tickets to see his show
she tags along and stands in the crowd
looks up at the man that she turned down.
he was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enough for her
now he's a super star
slamin' on his guitar
does your pretty face see what he's worth?
sorry girl but you missed out
well tough luck that boys mine now
we are more than just good friends
this is how the story ends
too bad that you couldn't see
see that man that boy could be
there is more that meets the eye
i see the soul that is inside
he's just a boy, and i'm just a girl
can i make it anymore obvious?
we are in love, haven't you heard
how we rock each others world
i'm with the skater boy, i said see ya later boy
i'll be back stage after the show
i'll be at a studio
singing the song we wrote
about a girl you used to know

2002-07-09T04:59:00.000-07:00

you know it only breaks my heart
to see you standing in the dark alone
waiting there for me to come back
i'm too afraid to show
if it's coming over you
like it's coming over me
i'm crashing like a tidal wave
that drags me out to the sea
and i wanna be with you
and you wanna be with me
i'm crashing like a tidal wave
and i don't wanna be
stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded
i can only take so much
these tears are turning me to rust
i know you're waiting there for me to
come back
i'm to afraid to show
i miss you, i need you
without you, i'm stranded
i love you so come back
i'm not afraid to show